At least my riding lessons are back on! Yes!
But with the resuming of some ‘normal’ activities comes roaring back all of my previous concerns/issues. Footing in the indoor. Horses not being turned out enough. The outdoor is kaput, at least for this season? UGH.
I told my husband that I want to just buy a farm and deal with all this myself, dammit!
Otherwise…Address what I can, and then see what I can manage or not manage. Oats has been great otherwise, we had a return to lessons last week (jumping and dressage!) and I was really able to address our warm-up issues in a way that felt both calming, and productive. Go us! Phew!
I felt rusty as all hell but otherwise? Pretty darned good. Oats is moving great, I’m very pleased with that. I missed my trainers like crazy too. All the drama, angst, moving, rude and horrible boarders and COVID 19 and just…Man. My trip to Argentina (haaaaaaaaa) not a thing anymore, summer holidays..?? Just. ARGH.
It still feels like some of my life is on hold, and will remain so.
Ian and I are able to get a lot of cool runs done throughout areas locally, and in the Cowichan Valley and I feel extremely grateful that we are able to do so with ease. Same with riding- at least I can do it? Despite all the ‘should I stay or go’ angst that continues to plague us?
I miss horse shows, friends, races, travel…Happy hours are coming back, and so are hair cuts, but the other stuff? Nope.
Ian and I are forced to be creative with our time, so we do a lot of running, food projects, and some creative projects too- like water colours.
This is a long and strange time, and I didn’t want to blog about it because all I felt was gloom and doom. I don’t really feel that anymore, but I do feel like I’m in this strange limbo where everyone is acting like normal, but behind the act is a lot of anxiety and uncertainty.
But since it’s going to be awhile, I might as well come back for now.