No Stranger: Ride/jump/life

As we wrap up November (tomorrow is Dec 1? Wha??) I’m happy to say this has been a pretty good week! I rode tons which I’m sure Oats didn’t really appreciate, but he did get a lot of good, consistent work. Did poles on Sunday, flatwork on Monday/Tuesday and a jump lesson last night (Thursday). He was so good on Thursday! We even had the oxers go up to 2’6”, and I guess the full course was somewhere around that too? Except for a x-rail on the circle. He was excellent! What a great boy!

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Oats was jumping even better than this (from a few years ago).

I’ve been learning to let go jumping, and I think he is really responding well to it. As well, I’ve been slowly healing my ligament injury that I received back in Oct., and as I build my fitness back up, I think I am better able to respond as a rider, as the rider that Oats needs. It helps that I am not in pain when I ride, and I feel ‘stronger’ and more capable and less awkward and vulnerable.

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Someone is SO getting this for Christmas…

And on the injury front, I went to another rehab session on Thursday and I am very happy to say that I’m almost completely healed! It went well, was less painful that in the past (though I am apparently a huge wimp, because damn, it is still kind of painful?!!) and I’m hearing that now I need one re-check on the shockwave treatment in a month, and other than that, just monitor as needed. 🙂 YESSSS!!!!

So I’m going forward on a maintenance-only schedule, and I will go back if I end up in pain again, but otherwise…It’s all good news. Thank god! And he said I was probably fine to ramp up my activity (though he added in that it sounded like I was probably doing that anyways…Hah, right I was. I have to try!).

So, some good news this week for sure. Feeling good and happy with it! And very pleased with my Oats. What a good pony.

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The other person is you

I feel like I don’t even have that much to recap on this past weekend? Had a good jump lesson last Thursday, took Friday off, and oh right…found a HUGE DEAD RAT in my locker bright and early on Saturday. 😦

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Wish Gidget was actually a rat terrier or something…

Gross. So gross. I screamed and ran out of the barn, found my friend and asked her casually…”So, how squeamish are you?” She said she wasn’t, so I said ‘good! Come with me and bring a shovel!’

She disposed of Mr. Dead Rat and I set about thoroughly cleaning my freaking locker. So much work. So much rat shit and urine. So awful. It was a really nice day out too, and how did I spend it? Cleaning my rat-infested locker… I did end up riding later though and Oats was really good!

I ran later in the day and my watch died and I ran longer than I planned to, it was getting dark out. Yikes! It was also kind of a bad idea, since my ligament injury was flaring up in the evening after my run. SIGHHHH I am ready for it to be done and sadly it isn’t. I am a very bad person at being injured.

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Flashback to a few weeks ago. Racing, and sooooo injured. Ouch! 

Sunday was another slack day, went riding (and I am still kind of processing things emotionally that are going on in my life, and I processed them through Oats. In a way I wish I hadn’t! Dumb of me) but he was good despite my being a dumb rider. I packed my run clothes and jogged after riding (ouch, that was a truly bad idea) and then met my husband and we went shopping downtown for Christmas gifts and some other things. It was nice to be downtown but I started getting really tired! Shopping is quite tiring for me, haha.

And that wrapped up my weekend, and I had a very chilly equine counseling session last night with Oats and my counselor. Very productive and it helped me feel more ‘grounded’ in my life/actions, if that makes any sense?

Ride tonight and I hope it is warmer~!

Awake and pretty much sober

Funny song title, I loved it.

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Sometimes I look competent?

This week was luckily quite short, and I didn’t ride Monday (did an equine counselling session for the aforementioend family drama, Oats got to cruise around on his own), rode Tuesday (he was ok? Now I can’t remember what we did!) and had a jumping lesson last night.

The lesson went well but had some disappointments for me- I can’t seem to let.go.no.matter.what?!! Argh. Oats is not a pony that needs me on his face all the time, or ever pretty much. He’s push-button, not strong, not fast (hah) and not anything requiring a death grip on the reins. So, why?

Why indeed!

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Miss this show, he was so good! 

We worked over a trot grid (3 X trot bounce jumps, two strides to a small oxer) and damn if I didn’t find it hard to let go of his face for the two strides to the oxer. Whyyyy? He jumped it perfectly fine, and I was surprised every time.

We then worked over a small course with a circle jump, a 4-stride line (rode well each time actually, some bobbles coming in but overall quite nice) and the grid.

I was a tad anxious (see- feeling vulnerable about letting go of his face…) but he was jumping quite nicely and very reasonably, so what is my deal? The jumps went up, not high but the outside line was definitely a bit higher than previous and Oats had zero issues with it.

I did sort of improve on the ‘let go of his face’ but let’s be honest- I struggle with feeling vulnerable doing that! It’s a battle to let my body go and be ok with it, I am that strong of a rider and it’s not hard for me to do, soooo why the resistance??

Oh well, overall I was very pleased with Oats’ ‘can-do’ attitude. Good pony 🙂

 

Way Yes

I had a very nice weekend- still managing some difficult aspects of life, but I feel like I’m hopefully taking the route that leads to me feeling better about it. This weekend I had a LOT of great friend time, me time, horse time, run time and everything!

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We remember.

Friday I had a dressage lesson – where we worked on a canter exercise. It was tough! I had to cut the lesson a bit short to run out to the Westshore for my friend and namesake’s birthday celebration 🙂

Saturday, riding and running. My ligament injury is not 100% but slowly improving run by run. It was a bit painful and ‘tugging’ on my run, but you know what, it was better than it has been- so I’ll take it!

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Just a good day- photo by Lindsay. 

Saturday night was visiting with friends- I brought dessert and drank some (a lot?) of wine. Haha. This was in preparation for Sunday’s big event…Bringing the horses to THE BEACH!! Yes, in November?! Hahaha. It was great though. They managed to keep their hair on mostly, Oats was a bit anxious and nippy with some of the other horses, and he spooked at a dog, but yeah for it being November, cold and windy, and a bunch (6 total) of horses? Very good. 🙂

Got home in the afternoon and had to get ready to host in-laws at our place for dinner. Busy busy! It was a lovely evening and the dinner my husband made was fantastic! I also drank a lot of wine, hahahah.

Monday- counseling session to work on some of the issues that have been challenging me this week- it was productive, and I had a better idea of where things went wrong recently. Hindsight is 20/20, isn’t it? I didn’t ride, but Oats got to cruise around the indoor while we were talking and chill out. He also had a farrier appointment. Another busy day! So glad to have Monday off, phewww.

And that brings me to today- where I am trying to be more relaxed, present in my surroundings, and not taking myself, my health or my abilities, for granted.

Good race, bad run: MEC Race #5 Halloween run!

I usually really like this one, if the weather is good there’s nothing better! But that was before I got injured 😦 I immediately knew I’d have to scrap the half-marathon, I was way too hurt to run that. Realistically, I was too hurt to race much of anything at this point and still today…But I got stubborn, my friends were racing too and dammit I wanted to! (Ok so now I’ve been injured for a solid month. It sucks, friends, it sucks).

So it poured rain all night, we went to a Halloween party and played it safe due to the race, enduring SOME razzing from friends, “It’s only a 5k!” What are you going home early for!” Ha.

I met up with my friends at the start of the race- in the bathroom lineup- of course. It was nice weather, the sun was starting to peek out and the clouds were blown away. I was even wearing shorts! Yes!!

We did a brief warm-up and the results were not promising. Shooting pain through my pelvis and back. Lovely. I correctly figured that this was gonna hurt. And it did. And it hurt even more to run fast, go figure haha.

Then we were off and I tried valiantly to cling to some sort of pace, but yeeeahhh…It didn’t happen. My km’s were slow, I felt like I was gasping for breath and had just shooting pain through my pelvis and lower back. It was slippery with the recent mud/rain and dead leaves, and just kind of up-down-all-around race. In other days I would have really enjoyed the variety haha. More of a true trail race than the half is, actually.

I did miss doing the half though.

I was kind of chugging along, feeling annoyed that I was so injured and it felt really hard. I was glad to see the finish line, and I wound up in 2nd place? Wha? Let’s put it this way- my time was not competitive. Ah well!

Best of all? My buddies were there to run with me, and one of them even placed 3rd! Whoo hoo! I just liked having friends there with me 🙂

And I am still injured and getting therapies on my abdomen to hopefully figure out wtf is going on. A month down…Hopefully that’s all it is going to be. My fingers are crossed!!

Shockwave

Therapy, that is. Ugh. I am still very much injured (current diagnosis is a muscle tear in my abdomen wall, near some particularly spirited ligaments that pull horribly on my pubic nerves…). 😦

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Photo thanks to my friend Katie! All snuggles for Mr. Oats.

I injured it three weeks ago, and it’s been on and off painful since. The only things that really aggravate it are running, and riding, natch! Which I do every day? Dammit. I am still trying to ride and run but the running is so painful that I definitely have been toning it wayyyyy back. I even downgraded a half marathon that I was supposed to do to a 5k, which was still VERY painful to run. Man.

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At least my pony loves me! Photo thanks to Katie H. 

Riding this week was pretty good, had a dressage lesson on Friday that was quite humbling…Like after an hour of lesson, this is what my warm-ups should be? Yiikes..We are not there yet, but we are getting there. Otherwise have been enjoying some flatwork, rides with friends, Halloween candy and Halloween parties!!

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Happy Halloween! From a friend’s party this weekend, one of TWO parties I went to! 

I had a shockwave therapy appointment yesterday morning and jesus it hurts~ It is no joke, I didn’t realize it was going to be so painful. And they say that it’s not even on a bone, which is more painful. Yikes. I have another session on Thursday to try and speed up the healing for my muscle…Can’t say I am looking forward to it. I felt beat up yesterday and in a fair amount of pain.

Still with some significant nerve pain today, oh joy. At least my muscle isn’t hurting?

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I am drowning my sorrows in chocolate and wine! 

Disappointing diamonds are the rarest of them all

So why not me?

Why not you?

Why not now?

On a Father John Misty kick right now, for some reasons… 😉

My weekend was much quieter but no less drama for some reason…UGH. I had a great time on Friday visiting with friends out for dinner, and then on Saturday had my usual schedule of riding, moving some jumps in the outdoor arena, running some errands and then went out for a run (was planning to replicate my husband’s route that he ran in the AM, track how long it was) and BOOM! Disaster! Of course the weather was fantastic, gorgeous day, sun shining and all is right with the world, until…

About 30 minutes into my run (my GPS of course was not working so I had the timer on), I was almost stopped dead with sudden, shooting pain out of my hip, pelvis and lower back. It felt like something had come loose in my lower back?! Excruciating. The referral pain was everywhere, weirdly. Hip? Pelvis? Pelvic bone? Lower back, near ish to my tailbone? WTF was going on?

And I couldn’t cajole my body out of it, not in the slightest. I had this bizarre lateral pain, so that every time I was on one foot, my hips ‘flexed’ in this weird and painful way, all the way through to my pelvic bones. Ouch!!!! Goddammit.

And I was at Ross Bay, 4ish kms to my home back. I could only do one thing- limp home slowly. It hurt to run, it hurt to walk, it hurt to stretch it out on the floor, it hurt to shower. Everything hurt.

And it stayed that way through our trip to Craigdarroch Castle, where we had tickets with a friend to go see Nosferatu in old timey black and white, no talking. It was so fun! I was still in a fair amount of pain. So weird.

Sunday I still went riding, but tacking up, grooming, picking up the saddle, getting Oats out of the paddock and picking out his feet were sooooo painful. Just couldn’t move right, my back hurt and my hips were killing me. Riding was fine though, so what gives????

I had a chiropractic appointment (made in desperation on Saturday night after it happened) and he didn’t find anything particularly wrong, nothing new anyways since our last visit. So what the fuck just happened>!!?

UGH UGH UGH. I have a call in to my doctor. And we’ll go from there I guess! 😦