Jump lesson last night, and while I’ve had a really good week of some fun and solid rides, and even some slow chukka polo learning on Wed and field rides with Oats, I struggled with anxiety last night.
I had my heart in my throat! Oats could sense my lack of commitment and he was so BLAH for jumping- I had to really pony up and ride to my fences. I kept them at weenie height because of this weird anxiety I was dealing with. It kind of sucked, but my ride in general was okay, I just wished I had been able to ride more effectively, braver and confident? UGH. Mixed feelings- I had some great moments but overall it was a trying course for me to manage and the jumps were so small!
I wish I could get it together, ha. But, lots of positives.
Oats was amenable but clearly not willing to put forward effort if I wasn’t. Fair enough horse, fair enough.
I have another jump lesson on Saturday and I have requested we jump in the field!! Time to exercise my bravery muscles. 🙂